I have been feeling really sick these last couple of days. Some kind of flu that's going around must have found it's way to me. I'm making the most out of this time by just allowing my body to rest while I enjoy the long days in bed watching movies and relaxing. This morning, I heard the beautiful sound of a bird chirping right outside my window and even though it was a little tricky for me to stand up and walk over to the window, I did. There was a cute, brown, tiny bird just standing there. I figured it was really refreshing after days spent in bed to watch such a gift from nature so up close. I just stared at him for a little bit and suddenly realised I had been feeling a little heavy these past few weeks. Maybe a bit more inclined towards the negativity of daily happenings or maybe just overwhelmed with the energies going around. As I looked at the bird it all seemed to dissolve but just when I was feeling relieved by my realisation...
This morning I was feeling a little intimidated by some mayor missions I have been handed. So many fears had been activated over night, giving me weird symbolic dreams of how I was basically, terrified. When we are spiritually connected and in constant communication we are handed down missions and assignments for our development and to help the world around us. As I opened my Facebook today I saw Gabrielle Bernstein's video and this blog post is 100% inspired on that video she shared today. I consider her one of my physical mentors and guides, I encourage you to follow her if you haven't already. When we experience fear, she says, we are relying only on our own strength, so it's natural to doubt our abilities, specially when facing BIG assignments.
What we need to remember in order to release all fear, is the following...
Wake up, serve myself. Get my energy high enough to go serve others. I see the change in people's eyes, people who need someone to listen. Patients come in, patients come out and I can't help to feel grateful for the opportunity to serve others. Serving is something I never thought I would get joy from but after finding out I could do it my way, everything changed. I love to give now and I spend hours thinking on how can I put stuff out there into the world for others to benefit from, the thing is... Nothing I do will truly be of service unless I am feeling the best I could be feeling.
When we create, whatever we create, that creation carries our energy and vibrational frequency. We need to take good care of ourselves to be able to care for other, that's pretty obvious. There's ways in which we need to allow ourselves to receive though, that are not that obvious...
Ever since I was young I remember that, any time I was feeling confused, lost or discouraged all I could think of was getting home to write on my journal. The years have passed and I have accumulated over 10 journals and I love to go through them once in a while to remember how I felt during all of my life's transitions. Isn't it crazy how much we can change in some months?
Theres a certain magic to writing on a journal. There's a sense of poetry in pouring your heart out onto a page so intensely that your handwriting becomes unreadable. Rage and tears are allowed in those pages and it serves as therapy for our soul. Words carry energy out of your body and away from your heart. It allows you to get rid of all of the excess congested energy you may be having at the moment and clearing your body to work as a vessel again.
Shamanic Medicine is ancient, sacred, powerful and traditional. I have learned principles, techniques and traditions yet the world we live in now, is so far from where this medicine was created. I believe Shamanic Healing is the medicine the world needs right now, medicine for the soul. Our planet has entered such a state of un balanced living, what appears normal to us now would have been heartbreaking to past civilizations which protected our Planet. By definition a Shaman is a person who easily travels through different realms in search for information, answers, helping spirits and solutions to reclaim the balance of the community they are taught to serve.
Restoring the balance of Earth at this point won't be an easy task but I believe it can be done. My mission is to awaken one person at a time. My mission is be the channel for healing energy to come through, through me and reach anyone who is willing to receive it. I know that there is a reason why I found this path at this young age (I was found by shamanism when I was 22). I believe my soul is ancient and I believe I came into this planet at this specific time to provide the teachings (the essential teachings behind tradition) to a new crowd. I understand many people from our modern world are not ready to receive shamanism as it was originally created. I understand the way I can be of higher service is to honor the truth, the light in it and the power behind it yet shape it to be understandable by all of those who seek help.
I don't like to be called a Shaman because I believe, our approach on shamanism is completely different in the contemporary reality we live in. I don't think it's any less powerful, I don't think it's disrespectful. I believe any form of medicine that intends to heal humanity will shift and transform to feed the current cycle. What I understand as a Shaman, is a person who had the luck to be born into a space in which the Sacredness of it all, was respected. A space in which they were the advisors, the healers, the mediums and the warriors in the most traditional description of those words.
The greatest honor I have experienced in this lifetime is returning to Shamanic Medicine at a young age. I have reasons to believe in past life times I have been a traditional Shaman but in this lifetime what I need to do is a bit different. I need to provide Medicine (Soul Medicine) to all who come across my path asking for guidance. Not everybody will be receptive to shamanic medicine so I have a couple of other path's teachings with me as well. It's alright for me to receive the name of Shamanic Healer, Shamanic Practitioner, Shamanic student etc. but in reality I like Medicine Woman better.
This is one of the most popular posts I've had on Instagram, the story of how I found Rahelio, or how the Universe aligned our encounter. One of the first days I was in Sedona, during Meditation he was shown to me. A voice in my mind said, "As soon as you see him, talk to him." I didn't pay much attention to it. Few days later we were at a restaurant having dinner and he walked in. I was completely shocked to see the same guy walk in, the one I saw in meditation. I was shocked of how accurate the image shown to me was. I didn't find the courage to go talk to him, it was just WAY too awkward to approach him without anything to say. He left and I felt disappointed in myself. I figured if it was truly meant to be, it would find a way of happening, our encounter.
I took a day off to retrieve to the Top of Bell Rock mountain and during that day, my sister asked around for a good shamanic healer. She received only a name, Rahelio. She researched and found his information and even a picture she saved for me.
When I saw the picture, it was the same guy. Rahelio was that guy I saw in Meditation and my sister had booked an appointment for the next day, without knowing any of it. This caught the attention of many people on my feed and they kept asking me how did it go. So here it is..
Shamanic Practitioners retrieve to Vision Quest whenever they feel the calling for a spiritual journey which will be profound and transformative. A shaman is very familiar with intense transformation and dancing with the storms the Universe might bring upon them to help them understand lessons and evolve. I have dreamed about doing a Vision Quest ever since I heard about it. A true vision quest consists on 3 or more days and nights spent in a encircled area exposed to the elements with no food, just some sacred items.
I am not ready yet to pursue a 3 day vision quest but I will one day, I can't wait. In the meantime, since I was visiting Sedona which is considered Native American Sacred Land, I had to give it a try. I climbed up the top of Bell Rock and chose a quiet little ledge with the incredible view of the valley below. I climbed a little before sunrise and watch the sun complete it's whole cycle above me.
Even though it sounds absolutely magical (at least it does for me haha) it did present many challenges for me. For the first 4 hours my mind was freaking out, bringing upon me tons of fears to try and get me out of there. Our minds can sabotage us sometimes if we are not careful. So I sat there and opened my Sacred Space, feeling the wind blowing as I said the prayer for each direction. The energy was powerful, my soul was content.
It was COLD as $^#$.
Sorry for the expression, but I insist. It was really really cold. The previous days was really sunny and I assumed it would be sunny that day as well. As a shamanic practitioner I should've meditated the night before and would have received the memo of it being so cold, oh well. From the moment I sat down in the early dawn I was shaking, the breeze was cold and intense. I figured it would get warmer during the day but it never did. After some connection to nature, to the wind and the sun, the breeze stopped and the sun came out warming me a bit.
I got really annoyed at the beginning. My body's discomfort created all sorts of negative thoughts, emotions and tons of frustration. I knew that was part of the detox process and eventually it would seize, so I sat there patiently, what happened next made it all worth it...
Why it felt so Incredibly healing for me
After a couple of hours, the crazy mental chatter stopped and I could see the magic of this moment for what it truly is, a sacred experience. Everything began looking more colorful, the breeze spoke to me and I could feel in complete connection to earth. I noticed the breaths of Earth. As it inhaled everything was quiet for a minute or two, no wind, no birds, no noise. Then for a couple of minutes all the sounds got turned on at once and these repeated itself during the whole day like Mother Earth was breathing underneath and around me.
It was truly beautiful to me as well to feel the connection in which I felt so cold I started wondering if the Earth could get cold as well. If anyone ever wondered about that and if anyone ever sent warm energies to cover Earth and warm it up. Everything started to shift, my thoughts became very abstract and symbolic. I connected to the fact that the dirt I was holding in my hands is made of the bones, wisdom and sacred objects of native american medicine men and women of the past. How that same dirt witnessed ceremonies, sacred connections and rituals from the many of generations before me.
I did many different rituals allowing my heightened energies to flow across Mother Earth and Humanity helping the healing processes happening at this time. I prayed for the homeless, for the hungry, for the tortured animals souls.. I recharged my own energy and prayed for my patients, my students, my family and every beautiful soul in my life. But by far, what was the MOST important moment for me was when I accepted my mission and purpose in a profound way, with this sacred land as a witness for my new found empowerment. From that moment on I took a vow. I made a promise to the Universe to put all my fears and comfort zones a side and step up into true service, unapologetic, global service. I felt the true shift. My eyes teared up and I remained in complete awe of the beauty before me as I listened to voices in the wind. At that moment it ALL made sense.
Can you imagine where a 3 day vision quest can take you..
She would have good days and bad days but for most of those years, they were all bad days. I cannot describe how frustrating and depressing it felt for me. Knowing the years kept passing and her life had no color what so ever. Without knowing it, I was been exposed to this for a reason as well. I got such a profound understanding of how self-sabotage, depression, anxiety and many symptoms scream for help when there's something more that needs to be addressed underneath the surface.
We started the Wheel of Medicine together. These is a year long course which strips you from everything you think you know about yourself and allows you to enter your Higher State of being and become a healer. The process was intense for all of us but I knew for my sister it was just, impossible. It was so difficult for her to face the pain she was feeling and I didn't know how to be there for her. Our personalities clashed, our energies clashed, our relationship was painful and filled with resentment, fear and anger. For years I honestly thought I would never feel a true connection for her. The love was there but when you fight with someone all the time so much negativity is thrown your way you forget how to access that love.
The Wheel of Medicine prepares you to heal patients in the most profound ways, on a spiritual level. Once in the training we learned that all sorts of energetic parasites, entities and evil spirits unfortunately exist. Not only they exist but they are very aggressive sometimes. My sister received ALL the procedures in the book, several times and things didn't seem to get better. Instead she became more and more ill. Something was destroying her, fast and it was no longer something we could sigh about and remain crossed armed. Something needed to be done or she would die, I could feel it. Her body was no longer cooperating with her, her mind was lost... I cried myself to sleep for months and months as doctors seemed to do all exams they could to find what was wrong and they all came back perfect, no sign of physical imbalance what so ever.
The level of frustration and despair we went through as a family is something that, I honestly never thought I could handle. Our teacher, a very wise and kind medicine woman, got out of her way to help us and did everything in her power to uncover and heal what was going on. She did a very profound Shamanic Healing procedure on her and about 2 days later the doctors discovered she had a Massive Brain Tumor. Everyone was shocked about how it could've gotten so big without the common symptoms showing up. Our teacher assured a very disturbed spirit force had been with her for all these years and had gathered enough energy to materialize this kind of tumor and blocked doctors from finding it.
This was shocking enough and the pain we felt was unmeasurable. This might sound crazy, I know. It was. But what happened next was a confirmation that these crazy things actually happen sometimes and that it is very important to be aware that sickness might not JUST be sickness. The body gets sick when our spirit is sick or undergoing some sort of external influence. A healthy spirit will make sure the body they are living in is healthy, against all medical logic.
Anyway, my sister was taken into surgery right away, as soon as they realized what was happening. Doctors assured that it was the worst case scenario, the tumor was massive and it was aggressively spreading to all of the areas of the brain.The surgery took about 13 hours, the longest I've ever lived. During this time I managed to regret every fight, every judgement and torture myself to the point of exhaustion. The doctors assured us she had very little possibility to wake up after the surgery and they assured if she did, she would no longer be herself. She wouldn't be able to walk or talk, maybe she would be blind, there was no way of knowing.
The pain I felt broke me. It broke me to a point in which the only thing I could do was surrender to God's will. Maybe this was her way out, maybe she wanted to stop living. Maybe this was her time. Maybe before coming into this life, this was her destiny. I felt like I no longer had a heart, I felt numb and dead as I gave this situation permission to flow the divine plan in Gods eyes.
When she woke up 3 days later, speaking, remembering, moving, walking... (Just as I write this, tears start flowing so easily.) It was the best moment of my entire life to realize she remembered me. She was herself. Against all odds, against all diagnosis. The doctors where shocked they had no way to explain how this could be possible. It was one of those odd medical miracles you see on TV. My sister was back and she was smiling. She was alive and she was herself.
Our teacher told us sometimes, in very extreme cases like this one, all the negativity that was living in her system for so long materialized into a physical form so it could be removed completely liberating her soul and body once and for all. She survived because she was truly liberated from these energies that were living in her system and given a chance to live as her and her only.
As the months went by, she still had to struggle with the fight against cancer (yeah, did I mention the tumor was not only huge, aggressive, in her brain but it was also, cancer.) Even through the struggle we could easily realize how she was positive and joyful and happy. She was someone she hadn't been in the last 10 years. Slowly she regained her personality, her confidence, her attitude. She was so sure she was already healed for good she consciously left the quimotbherapy. Less than a year from the diagnosis, she is officially 100% cancer free. Against all odds.
When life is not feeling balanced and we find ourselves struggling, for some reason we feel like sabotaging ourselves with negative thinking is accepted. It is very easy to spiral down and forget all you´ve learned once you are facing real problems. This blog post is a guide to help you get back on track with your Manifestation Skills and get out of any trouble you may be experiencing.
1. WORDS: No matter what is happening, sugar-coat it, even in the privacy of your own mind. Negative words, phrases and perspectives tend to get worst and worst as we use them. A problem can start with a certain size in our mind yet if we entertain it with negativity it can easily grow until we believe it´s way larger than it is.
2. MEDITATION: When you feel stressed out and feel like meditation is a waste of time is when you need it most. Set your intentions for solutions to come up, be diligent with your time to relax and remember to feel good so you can attract good into your life.
3. BRAINWASH: This is specially helpful for financial situations. Brainwash yourself over and over again until you come back to a positive, abundant and wealthy mentality. Use audiobooks, watch The Secret a thousand times, use wealth attraction subliminal messaging while you sleep. This will help you change your perspective and prevent you from attracting more of that stress & problems you might be experiencing.
4. PATIENCE: You will get out of this one. You are currently being redirected into something better. Remain positive, listen to the messages the universe sends your way and realize you are the creator of your reality.
As far as manifestation goes, I have realized there´s certain techniques that work better for certain goals in particular. For example, intentions and visualizing haven't worked that well for me when I wish to manifest trips. What has worked wonders in that area is Vision Boarding!
I just got back from a 3 month long trip to Southeast Asia. We visited Vietnam, Thailand, Cambodia, Bali and Australia. It was a dream come true for me and I have to say the trip completely exceeded my expectations. After a few days of being back home I saw my old vision board hanging on the wall and it was so emotional for me to realize how the pictures I had included years ago, became a reality already.
I had a picture of a breakfast for 2 people in a beautiful scenery in Bali, I had a picture of Halong Bay in Vietnam and a picture of a girl doing yoga in Thailand. With a broad smile on my face and a bit of chills on my skin, I decided to take off the images so I could place new ones. I thought I should probably save the images as a reminder of how the Universe answers in the exact way it needs to, to take you where you want to go. When I took them off the vision board I realized I had written my intentions on the back of those 3 images. I wondered if this made any difference so I took off some other pictures that had not yet found a way to manifest into reality. Those pictures had no intentions written in the back. So... I thought that was really interesting and even though there´s no way to prove it, I think it´s a good experiment to do.
Create a vision board just for travels, to place images of all the places you would LOVE to see. It does not matter how far they may be, how expensive it may be to get there or how unlikely it seems to actually get there. Choose the best pictures you can find from those places.
1. Get all the images.
2. Get a board where you will paste all the images.
3. One by one, write your intentions on the back of each image and be grateful as if you had the ticket in hand.
Example of intention:
My intention is to manifest the possibility to travel to Fiji in the next 2 years with the best possible company, in the most comfortable and exciting way possible. Thank you Universe. So it is.
4. After you are done, bless the whole board with an honest and warm prayer.
5. Set the board somewhere you will see it all the time.
6. DON´T get impatient. It will happen, maybe a month or a year or 5 years down the road, but it will. So... wait for it.
The money, company, timing and perfect opportunity will come along in the best way possible, if you believe.
We all have a unique perspective, we have an obligation to share whatever we learn & experience with others so they can all benefit.